I'm well into my third week of caffeine-abstinence, and I have to say, it's going well. My main objective was to effect a metamorf... metermorph change for the better in my temperament, and I'm convinced, although it's early days as yet, there's definite progress as I notice I'm a little easier-going than hitherto. Not that my internal state is so different from before (and I'm of the belief, we all have similar internal states, emotionally) I'm still sensitive to many things, but the intensity is wound down a couple of turns. I confess, I was so bad at one point I'd want to fuck the offender up the arse, verbally snap at any perceived slight; but now, I kinda roll with the emotion, and I can see the practical side to this on a relational level, but... expressing oneself honestly shouldn't always be frowned upon, should it? Is self-censorship always good? It's funny though, isn't it, it's like we say, "don't tell me how it is, sugar-coat it, or better still, lie!". But... [creaking sounds of extreme cogitation] if that's how it is, even if the intentions are good, doesn't it mean we never really get to know ourselves, if we're spared the honest opinions of how others feel regarding us? Though, [more creaking] maybe most people want that, maybe they'd rather not know. It's a funny old world.
Fucking hell Gosh! And all I wanted to do was give a quick update on my abstinence progress!